I'm going to be gone for a while... I don't know when I'll be back. I've just been hit with some heavy stuff. Turns out I've got Asperger's. Hah... I don't really know what to say except that life is never more real than when it's turned upside down and dumped on your head. Two days ago I found out that I'm a different person on the outside than I thought I was on the inside. I don't know myself. You think that's what you've always wanted? An excuse to reinvent yourself? No... Don't fool yourself. This kills and I'm falling apart. ADHD, they said. That's common and easy enough to treat. Here's some pills to fuck you up until you turn old enough that you can't hide behind excuses anymore. Now I'm responsible for how I act. Thanks for reading thus far. I'm depressed, but don't worry. I've dealt with depression long enough and have outgrown my phase of thinking that hurting myself helps anything. That's just stupid. It's just this reinvention with nowhere to start. Discovering who you are when you don't know anything about yourself. I'm rambling, hoping for something poetic to happen. So I'm going to post this and walk away before I reread it and delete half of it. Pray for me. Wish for me. Cry for me. I don't care. Just don't expect me to be ready to post again for a while. I'm sorry.

By the way, since we're being honest, my name is Christina. Many of you know me as MidnightSun, or Middy. So for those of you with no attachment to Claude, but some to Middy... Hah, I love you guys. Goodbye.

*whimpers and cuddles* Good luck hun... You know where ta find me if you need anything.

Good bye Middy...I know we haven't really gotten to know each other, but I'm here if you need someone to talk to. My AIM is MSGundam199 if you ever feel like talking. Good luck. We can get a thread up when you come back! :-) See you when I see you!