Since some friends of mine do post here...drop by this place and read this...well I probably don't display some of my feelings clearly. Ever since I left McNair, it hasn't been the same. I don't know why, and I'm not too sure. What I know is that my affection towards real-life friends have died down to 0...ZERO! Contact through Internet doesn't bother me at all, but I just want to leave and carry on my life in peace without my past and I mean all of it.

There's a few acceptions, but I don't know what they are yet because it hasn't come to 'meetings'. "Maybe I should just get new friends." Yeah, but the problem is I don't want to. I like to just keep this 'online friends' life...but that's it..and there isn't anymore :bunny:

There's nothing wrong with having more affection towards online friends. The real reason why I come and post in forums as well is because I want to get away from all my real-life friends and meet people who have the exact common interests and ideas as me.
I'm not saying all my real-life friends are idiots, but only a rare few are the ones whom I really get along with.

that sucks to hear, lucky for me i have lots of real life and online friends :spam:

lol...Yeah I figured real life wasn't all that grand...I just need my honey...a couple best buds I occasionally hang out with. I can't find any girl that has the same interest as me in rl because well sooky, we both like games...and certain types...I don't know anyone that loves TFC as much as I do here...or wubs NS as much as I do too :D And it seems that I get along with guys more because of this... :( I need feminine role models!!!!!!! :cries:

I totally get what you mean carmelle! I don't know that many girls real life out there that like the same interests in me. But I'm lucky to have one girlfreind from school that loves video games and art just as much as me. :)
You don't really need feminine role models...heck, be as unique as you want!

j lo is hot!!!!! :oops: :spam:

well i gues i'll leave them bunny, bye ^^

You're lucky then sooklin...I lost my bestfriend about 3 years ago and it hasn't been the same since...It's hard to explain...more like just an emptiness, a lacking...but just knowing nothing can be done about it makes it all the more NOT ok...Some people may treat me as a good friend, but at times I just can't exchange those feelings. It's not my fault either because that's the way things just turn out...

and <sigh> icy, did you read anything I said above? <_< if you're just gonna jump to conclusions I might as well close this thread...case closed :angry:

you remember patty? patricia? Yeah that ended in chaos on my side...but I'm glad she's happy where she is now... I have moved on, just empty on the feminine side :o ah well that's life...I learn...and I'll be sure it doesn't happen again :lmao:

It does suck, but life has to move on and that is all part of growing up. Hey we should meet up again sometime....bring back all those old memories.

u know wht, just too much had happen during the 2 yrs at our school, too much had happen =( oh well =P i'm fine =P doesnt matter now anyways feel very tired from working.. caz working nite shift, >.<"

Don't worry be HAPPY!!! la la la la la la ..la.. LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!! :boing:

Yeah, of course I remember Patty, you guys were tight as hell in elementary. But yeah, things change and it's quite unfortunate.
I had to leave behind my best friend from Malaysia too and it really sucks that I can't really be with her.

:( Sometimes I still wonder where I went wrong. ahhh the distance.. you remember carolyn too right? We were best friends in grade 3.. then she had mono and I didn't see her for the rest of elementary. She went to RCSS in gr. 8 and we met again. At first, I wanted to still be best friends. I gave her a necklace to symbolize best friends forever. But for some reason....I couldn't relate to her anymore. Our paths are different and so were our minds. Our friendship just died right there. I never really understood what happened either. I'm just a bad luck charm when it comes to friends. And those years, I was thinking... Carolyn I'm gonna wait for you.. I wanna be best friends again... but we were two completely different people with opposite personalities when we met again... it's sad :unsure:

:o I didn't know that you and Carolyn were best friends in grade 3! But yeah, as I said earlier, friends change. I don't even keep in touch with any of my elementary school buddies except maybe for a few....right now I'm lucky that Davina goes to my school cuz I realised what a cool person she is. In elementary I didn't even know her.
Right now the current situation with Carolyn is that she's best friends with Julia. Remember the Julia that always hangs out with Natalie? Yeah, funny huh?
But yeah, I dont know why you're so concerned about having best friends and such. I currently don't have a best friend, but I'm still happy that I have a few close friends and a bunch of boys that make me feel like a queen :D

I don't think anyone can understand the loss I went through and putting guilt on myself for 4 years. It hasn't decreased, but I just don't think about it that often. I get used and abused. Taken advantage of...by the people that I trusted and have known for years. It's not really pretty, ontop of that...bad boyfriend relationships that ended in chaos...

I've always felt lonely... I only know a few that understood what I went through. It's the past now, but the pain remains...it'll take time...and the damage is done. I do have a best friend and that is my boyfriend. Girl-wise...no..and never. I have a few guy buddies I can trust and talk to...and only online. I have friends...that I wub to play tfc/ns with and post in forums with :D yay and w00t! This doesn't stop me longing, but I know deep down that it'll never be possible.

sometimes its not as bad as u think ^^ but good thing u dun think about those ^^ keep on the good work hehe (as in the dun think part lolz)

but I have my bunnies to love <3 Who cares :D