Hurtful Words
Written/ © 2005 by: Rua



I am a Rip Van Winkle whom sleeps most of her life away.
Depression instilled in me at a very young age.
Afraid that no one could ever see or love me for whom I am.
To watch those who pass me by stare at my face as though I were an utterly hideous girl.
I cry because I am lost to hurtful words of the past & present days.
Reminded that long-ago people only saw me in their own twisted way.
I slit myself to shut up the pain.
I bite & burn my hands to punish them for being small, petite, & delicate to the touch.
I hit my legs for being long & shaped like a ballerina's.
I hate myself for having an hour glass frail body.
To be told that if a big puff of wind would come along it will surely blow me down,
Maybe I should end it all & slumber in the tub so that I shall drown.
Words can hurt so be careful what you say.
One day it might be your words that take another life away.

FYI. I am not going to commit suicide. :huh: But rather expressing myself & how I feel deep inside sometimes. :rolleyes:

God...

Sad poem Angel, a very sad poem... Wish I could say something to make you feel better even inside, cause to me, you aren't hidious at all

But other then that...

What grade to give...

No grade, for I can not grade this poem of sadness and pain, for I can feel that same pain inside of me...

So I'll give you infinity for it

I wasn't sad at the time of when I wrote it. :huh: I was just pondering the thoughts of human consideration & decency. :unsure: I thought about what mean folks in the past have done to me & then I thought. Were they just acting out, because another person was mean to them. It all became like a chain of events inside my head. Why is it that most people (not all) rarely give another person's feelings any consideration? :blink: Are we so consumed by our own life that no one else matters. :( If so we (not all) need to pull the stick out of our asses & check to see if it's blue. <_<

I wish I know the answer to that question Nicole, but I'm afraid I don't

But I will never do anything to hurt you, this I swear upon my heart and soul

:wub:

You write beautiful stuff Nicole.

Thank you! :D