I Did Love You!
Copyright 2005 by: Nicole/Rua



I loved you more than words could say.
I never knew how to express them until someone told me that you were gone.
I feel so dead inside, & my world is a bitter shade of black to grey.
I don't think that I will smile anymore.
My laughter ceases & only tears fall down from my cheeks to my shakey hands.
I loved you more than words could say.
I shall wait for you in death.
My beautiful Hell.

This is a prime example as to why we need a crying emoticon.

Nicole...

Hey, look... To you and to Bobby... I am sorry... I am F---ing sorry for everything...

I am F---ing sorry... I AM F---ED UP F---ING SORRY!!! **edge of tears**

Nicole... You may hate me from now on, but this time I am not afraid to say this to you and to everybody else on the board

Nicole... Ik hou van jouw/I love you... No joke

Suicide is not something to joke about, dude.

I said I am F---ing sorry about it man...

I am F---ed up F---ing sorry **cries tears in pain and shame**

Don't do this again.

I decided I want an apology everyday too. With hearts and everything sweet written in it. :angry:

hey Lady hawk mind if i borrow your poem. i know one person one person...to which i absolutely must send this too.

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No, you cannot. :blink: I wrote it for Hell. :wub: Yet, who is this person you're trying to impress? If you want I can help you write your own poem to astonish him/her? ^_^

thanks that would be great. she is this girl from sweden :wub: :wub: :wub: she is so nice to me. i am captivated by her niceness :wub: :wub: :wub: and she is feeling stressed out right now. and feeling under the weather.

Tell me some things that you like about her. This will help you draw out some ideas on what you can write about. ^_^

ironic. being stupid yesterday i keep on forcing to talk to her. now she needs space. the mood is neautralized.

but i like about her?

she really nice in the right situations and no topic seems to be taboo to her.

Okay, that is a start. :) What words come to mind when you think about her?
Example: Sweetheart, surrendering to your love, silky brown hair, luscious red lips, a soft touch of ones embrace, & etc.

Something like that. ^_^

i like to call her honey in my mind :wub: :wub: :wub: :wub: ... she doesn't like me thou she likes someone else but its cool :rolleyes:

also i need a poem that will calm her down. she is in a terrible mood swing. and say that she feels like hiting all the guys she sees. i really wish i can calm her down. this anger business is unhealthy for her :(

Well you’re a guy. :rolleyes: What would you like to say to her? :) What would you do to reassure her that not all guys are idiotic morons with only one thing on their mind? ^_^ No offense! ;) But that is how most girls think. :huh:

*sighs* nevermind. i got lots on my mind but for some reason cant think of any thing ot say. the feeling is sort of gone.

Well, if you need ideas on how to woo her or cheer her up don't hesitate to ask. ;) If all else fail & words are not your thing... ^_^ Go buy her a card at Hallmark along with a stuff animal & some chocolates. Not going to lie the old fashion stuff is still a big turn on for girls. :wub: That or find out what she is into & feed off that. I will use myself as an example. I enjoy art & music. So on my birthday my old pal Kris got me colored pencils. I still have them till this day & I will cherish them always. Hint: 'Think small!' ^_^

yeah, i gave this girl some stuff.

a yellow candle with a tazmanian devil figurine(she likes yellow and taz) got my first outburst hug from her.

last valentine i send her a flower holding a teddy. she said she keeps the teddy. altough she has to throw away the flowers. they were dying. :( oh well.

ah, now that's cute Forte.exe

Which reminds me all of the sudden... I still need to do something very important

I agree with Hell. That is so cute. :wub: Hey next time you send her flowers get her a flower pressing kit. That way she can press them & not throw them away. She could cut them up & make homemade poepery. That is what I would do. ;)

anyways i need to request a poem sometimes soon. now if i can remember what you want me to tell you?

i want to tell her that i love her voice each time i hear here, her hair so beatiful and her eyes too. is that enough to make a poem?

*sigh* :wub: *slaps face* Yup! You've got a girl reeled in if you say how you love her voice & how beautiful she is. ^_^ Oh, if you compare her to the moon/sun or if you say something like. "If I could only cut you up into little stars & show the world your beauty. To make your lovely sone ego in the wind. To be the siren that calls to men to crash their ships. If I could...but yet I wouldn't. Because I am a greedy man, a jealous man, & I must be the only one... To love you forever & always." How's that? You may use that if you like. ;) If not to the solar system, but then to an angelic flower. Any of those & :wub: she's yours for the taking. ^_^

wow you read my mind perfect. i actually send her a song called Sun and moon... to bad she cant download it. oh well. next time i will mail then :D

thanks L. Hawk :D

i keep on forgetting to tell her

when i see you i am taking this pen and jabbing both my eyes out cause i love your voice and its the only thing i want to hear.

Okay jabbing a pen in your eyes is a bit much. :huh: Instead hold her hand to your heart, close your eyes & tell her. "Though your beauty capitvates my soul. Tis your voice that sends shivers down my spine, peace to my restless heart, & sings of happy songs to a my ever loving ears. ^_^ You're my link to heaven. My angel, my love, my one & only sun. Please do me the honors in going on a date with me."

Now isn't that better than jabbing a pen in you eyes. *btw* You're always welcome. ^_^

i also printed the poem on a paper burned the edges for an old look and bind it with garbage bags ?!!! i got to change that to somehting else.

Sounds sweet! I hope she likes it. ^_^ If not man is she nuts. :blink: