WARNING: I wrote this for myself, and the way I think. I didn't write this for children, or for those who are concervative, I've warned you, and this is your chance to press Backspace.

Chapter 1
The Gaia Moore Call


Gaia Moore sat starring at the ceiling, it had been a month since she had been put on vacation from the FBI, it had been a month since she had solved her career-breaking case, it had been a month since a person she cared about died, it had been a month since she had felt betrayed, and it had been a month since she had called Ed Fargo. Gaia felt her stomach churn, nothing was right anymore, nothing would ever be right. She needed someone, she was always alone and she knew from her FBI training that normal life simulation was needed in the line of work. That basically meant that if she kept trailing off by herself, alone, and pretty much be what she pushes herself to be, a loner, then she was going to be alone, always and forever and she would eventually die alone.
The only person she knew that still cared about her was her father, and he could be out there somewhere, thinking about her too. She knew that she was becoming exactly like him, working for agencies that threatened every-day life and kept her from living a normal one. But Gaia knew that even if she left the Bureau she would never be able to do anything that felt right and maybe she realized now that she understood her father, and that re-connecting with him was what her life’s work was adding up to, that was the huge climax in her life that she now understood would come. And maybe that’s why her father put up with life, because he knew that one day she would understand that they were doing what would only feel right to do.
So that was the reason she had called him…. And by him she meant her father, because after calling Ed Fargo and announcing who she was, Ed hung up the phone and she didn’t call back. She knew that he probably hung up because he knew that she was trouble, or maybe he thought she needed help and didn’t want anything to do with her anyways. Whatever his brain concluded from her call, he had obviously decided that he didn’t want to talk to her even though they had been great friends. So after taking a moment or two to realize that re-connecting with Ed Fargo was a bad idea, she called the CIA and demanded to know where Thomas Moore was. They had denied that such an agent by the name even worked in the agency, which made her get off her butt and go to Langley and find out where her father was, and it turns out that one of her fathers’ mentors Agent Rodriguez was still in the agency. When she showed up in the building no doubt that security managed to recognize her as some sort of possible threat because they took her underground and asked her questions that only she would know. She found the test consuming and a little disappointing, if the questions had answers that only she would know, then why did the CIA know them? And if the CIA knew classified information about her, then surely other top secret organizations knew equal information as well, which proved the test of identification a little pointless.
She talked to Agent Rodriguez and he confided to her that her father was taking a break from a consuming case that had stressed him to the point where he had to be terminated from location, which in other terms meant that her father had to be killed and now he was laying low for a while.
“How long until I can see him?” She remembered asking, her voice actually full of concern.
“You know that information is classified Agent Moore,” Rodriguez said to her, she nodded in agreement.
“But we’ll give you a call when he can emerge,” Rodriguez added, she looked in his eyes and knew that he meant it. “You know I’ve known your father for a long time, he’s sacrificed more than the rest of us, and I want you to know that, and I also want to let you know that I feel close to you, because not only do you have your father’s eyes, but you’re everything he’s every worked for.”
And with that Rodriguez had left her alone and lost, she appreciated that he thought of her fondly, and she knew that he would help her out. But in her father’s best interests he needed to be dead, a visit from Gaia Moore to a strange location could spike the surveillance of unknown terrorists.
But it had been earlier in the day around four o’clock when Agent Rodriguez showed up at her door, and confided in her personally that her father was staying in Cherry Hill, New Jersey.
Gaia had packed several bags, and was taking a good nights’ rest before she began her journey north to Cherry Hill. But it was already eleven thirty and she couldn’t sleep, maybe it was the anticipation of meeting with her dad, after all she hadn’t spoken to him since graduation which had turned out to be a little overwhelming for everyone. Finally she turned off her light and drifted off to sleep….


Ed Fargo was bored, it was a term that he didn’t use often, whether or not he was actually doing anything, his mind was usually at top speed thinking about work, college, his parents, his sister and her current divorce proceedings. Life was tough without him having to think about the strange Gaia Moore call he had received a month before, he had used that term too much already, the Gaia Moore call, it was beginning to consume him. He had once called this type of thinking the Gaia Flu, in which Gaia Moore invoked his thoughts all day everyday and then he wouldn’t be able to think of anything else. And what was worse was that he was actually on his way to meet his girlfriend, while he was obsessing about his old ex-girlfriend. Life was becoming extremely elaborate for him.
But he couldn’t help it; everywhere he went he thought of Gaia, he was actually going down the stairs of a subway in which he had almost fallen down into (back when his legs didn’t work) during a heated argument with Gaia. But then Gaia turned back to save his life from bruises and they both admitted to each other that they loved each other, kind of, as friends of course.
He turned back to look at the top of the stairs, there he had been almost about to trample down with his chair before Gaia pulled him to safety. He turned and jumped inside the doors before they closed, and then he remembered again when he couldn’t take the subway, and he remembered when Mary and Gaia ditched him to play truth or dare. He had been really mad then, but now he smiled, he would do anything to have that back again.
But he would never be able to have that back again, but back to the call, Gaia Moore had called him, it had seemed unreal then. He remembered picking up the phone, and hearing her sweet voice again, at first he was confused, then angry, then surprised, and finally he had been scared, so out instinct he hung up the phone, he had done it before he realized what he had actually done. Then he cursed and tried star sixty nine, which failed, because it was so Gaia to call from a private line. And she had not called back again, and he didn’t blame her, after all if he called her and she hung up, then it was clear to him that she didn’t want to talk to him. But it had been an accident in his situation, he didn’t know what he was doing, he wasn’t in control. He had called his phone company and demanded the number, but they told him that it was clearly untraceable, which made him kind of appreciate Gaia for being so annoying.
He smiled again, someone might think he was on drugs, he knew that if he were watching himself he’d think he was on drugs. And he hated Gaia for it, he had been free, he had been released from her love-spell, sure it took him 6 months, but later he finally got over it and realized she wasn’t coming back, and he had been free. For awhile he had stopped thinking about it, that day she called he was actually worried that Victoria might never move out of the house. But now all he could think of was her voice, and why she had called….
Of course that meant constant thinking regarding Gaia, now she was becoming something more than what she was, since she wasn’t actually there with him, she was becoming the goddess that he always imagined she was, untouchable, glorious, and out of this world.
He shook his head and snapped back to reality, Gaia wasn’t there, she had called him private, and she was only annoying the shit out of him. He stood up and walked out into the cool night air, it was early September, he felt some sort of adrenaline but it was only his imagination, Gaia was not going to jump out from behind the bushes and hug him hello, she was not going to call him tomorrow, or the day after…. Finally he walked into Washington Square Park and looked for Bailey. Bailey was his new girlfriend; he had been with her for a year and a half, Bailey was almost everything Gaia was not, she was popular, she had many friends, she was always on her phone, and if he called her she was always there. They had started out as friends at first, but Bailey saw something in him that kick started the relationship, first it was just hanging out in class together, then seeing each other at parties, and then it was calling each other and going out together. Before either of them could ask, they were a couple. Bailey was like Heather, well the old Heather, when Heather had many friends and was always on the go. Of course Bailey just was nicer, she didn’t pick fights, she didn’t have numerous enemies, she was just fun. And another thing that attracted him to Bailey was that Bailey was blonde, and blue eyed. When he first glanced in her direction it was because of that energetic blonde hair, he had to admit that it had reminded him of Gaia, but instead of the serious intense high cheek boned face he expected, it was a happy-smiling-dimples and all face.
“Hey there,” He looked to see Bailey sitting on a bench with her best friend Claire.
“Hey you guys,” He walked over and sat next to Bailey.
“Hey,” He said and kissed her on the forehead. “So what are we doing tonight?”
“Well, we’re just going to wait for Mark to get here, so he can pick up Claire, and then you and me can just go do whatever we want,” Bailey said with a mischievous grin on her face.
“Nice,” He said and kissed her. Kissing Bailey was different than kissing Gaia; Bailey was always wearing lip gloss that tasted good, which made her lips sweet and tasty.
“Yo, there’s other people on the planet,” Claire giggled, Claire was blonde but green-eyed, she was a pretty girl with freckles surrounding her eyes and nose. Bailey and Claire came from Ocean City, Maryland and naturally took to each other.
Bailey giggled even more and he smiled and held her tight, Bailey and Claire had both come back from their home towns only a couple weeks ago to go back to school. He had visited her in Ocean City during the summer; he then realized that Bailey having a boyfriend from the New York was a huge deal in her house because Bailey had a younger sister who idolized both of them. Apparently he was a golden boy; he had to admit that he often took advantage of who he was.
Ed went to NYU School of Medicine, and he was an active survivor of the experimental surgery that gave him back the use of his legs, even though he was not a million dollar victim from his tragic accident, Ed had made a deal that earned him an immediate 456,000 dollars, and 189,000 dollars in some pending damages that he was to receive soon, whatever that meant. Not a lot of people knew of this, but in the past year and a half, Bailey obviously took note of this. He didn’t think that Bailey was with him for money, but since she had found out she always wanted him to go visit her parents. And when a girl wants you to visit the parents, it meant that the girl was getting serious.
“What up?” They turned around and saw Mark coming towards them, Mark was another golden boy, but Mark came all the way from Chicago to go to NYU, they were both in the same classes, so he had been the one to introduce Mark and Claire.
“Hey, sorry I’m late, as it turns out my boss wanted to talk to me, I’ve been promoted from cashier to waiter,” Mark laughed, he worked at the Hard Rock Café in Times Square.
“That’s nice, well see you later dude,” He said and stood up.
“See you guys!” Bailey waved as Mark & Claire took off.
“So where are we off to tonight, your place or mine?” Ed asked Bailey.
“Well, Claire’s got our place for tonight, and I hate being in other people’s houses, so I got us a room,” Bailey smiled at him.
“What? What’s wrong with my place?” He asked her.
“You know… it freaks me out knowing Victoria and your parents are right next door,” Bailey said to him.
“Your right, let’s get going then.” He said to her as he hailed a taxi.
“Ladies first….” He said as he opened the door for her.
While they rode to the Motel they cuddled in the back seat, Gaia would probably never allow that to happen. Bailey was wearing a simple t-shirt over her little shoulders, and she had a body that gave him the feeling that she was too fragile to hold too tight, but he squeezed her anyways.
“So when do your classes start?” Bailey asked him.
“Soon, I’m so glad you got back early, why did you come back so early from home?” He asked her curiously, he knew her mom had problems letting go.
“Because I wanted to, I missed you Eddy,” Bailey said to him and kissed his neck, and that was another thing, Gaia would never call him Eddy…..
Finally the cab pulled over and Ed gave him a ten, they walked together and she led the way to room 303. Ed always felt adrenaline before sex. Back in his wheelchair days he didn’t have the use of his legs, so even if he got a boner, it would never travel down to his legs. Which he thought was the real disability, because your legs feel a rush starting from your thigh all the way down to your feet, kind of. And to not feel that during sex was such a disadvantage! Bailey opened the room and he kissed her as he shut the door behind them and stumbled their way onto the bed, Bailey always giggled during this part, which fueled him with more adrenaline to prove himself as a man.
Ed usually wasn’t the macho type, but he assumed that every guy felt this during sex, the need to satisfy. And he knew that if he didn’t satisfy Bailey, then he probably wouldn’t be able to do it again without some sort of strategy. He took off his shoes and slipped his shirt off his head as Bailey threw her shirt across the room, and that was also another thing about Bailey, she was always ready and peppy for a smack down. He pushed his hands through her hair and trailed her neck with kisses.
“Help me take my pants off Eddy,” Bailey whispered through heavy breaths.
Ed looked down at this exciting task and unbuttoned her pants, he kicked off his jeans as she pulled hers away, he let himself drop back on the bed a little tired, this was what nights were all about, having a good time with your girlfriend. She got on top of him and he knew that she felt the presence from under his boxers.
“Edddyyyyy,” Bailey said to him and smiled, she licked his neck and massaged his hips, he couldn’t move from her trance and simply closed his eyes, and he knew that he must have a dreamy expression on his face because he felt like he was on a cloud. Bailey traced his body with her hands and moved her fingers over his nipples, and she massaged him with firm pressure and circular movements. He felt his hands reach her back as he undid her bra, and she let it slip off.
Bailey always knew what she was doing, because when Ed wanted her to do something, she did it without a word spoken. She reached down and pulled down his boxers, this was when Bailey knew that he wanted her, because she could see it. Ed felt himself moan and took several breaths, they both needed to take in a little air. The first time they had done it had been exciting, good, of course she had been the first and only girl after Gaia, but each and every time they did it again, they knew each other so well that it was a magnifying experience, the sex was always better than the last time.
“Ed?” Bailey asked him timidly, it wasn’t much of a question; it was more of letting him know that she was ready.
“Hmm,” He moaned.
He let his fingers trace down to her panties and pushed them out of the way, they were both getting sweaty now, and the smell of her on him was infusing him. Then Bailey pulled the condom from its wrap and slipped it him.
They both began to make noises that only the other heard and moans and gasps escaped from both of them, Bailey laid her head on his chest and he held on to her waist.
“Ohhhh Ed,” Bailey said with closed eyes.
He let his eyes close and he felt himself drifting off into climax….
“Gaia.”
“What?”
“I love you.”
“I love you too.”

Wow I loved that ending! Awesome, reading this makes me think of how much I miss Gaia Moore :P. Very good!

great chapter and story! Continue,please.

Man, I've been forgetting to update the fanfic here, here's the next chapter(s)!

Chapter 2
Explaining
Gaia Moore turned on Old Oak Street and anticipated the moment that she had built up all the way to Cherry Hill, New Jersey. There was no turning back now, and even if she had the guts to shift to reverse and get back on Route 41, she didn’t want to. This was what she wanted to do; this was something she needed to do, because if she didn’t re-connect with her father, then there was no way life could ever even get close to normal. The road started to get dirty, and before you knew it was no longer a road, but a path, she had driven into a forest full of two feet-apart trees. She had a GPS system in her car, but her GPS was misleading her, she had driven for two miles now and she had reached her location, and there was supposed to be a house in front of her. But there wasn’t, instead the path ended by the closing in of trees. Gaia took a moment to think, this was a perfect place for her father to lay low, the wilderness. As far as she could remember her father wasn’t the type of camp and go hunting type of father, so she didn’t know why he was hiding out in the woods. But she kept thinking and concluded that her father had to be around here somewhere if Agent Rodriguez said so, obviously she had to hike the rest of the way, until she found something at least. The closing of the trees was no accident, those trees were fifty years old and obviously somebody had built a house nearby. If someone had built a house nearby they obviously wanted to be left alone, there was no way for anyone to receive mail, or for a mailman to even come by, or for cable or electric lines to come by.
She knew that she had to park her car there, and she had to walk the rest of the way. She looked in her backseat and grabbed a first-aid pack and slung it over her shoulder, she realized that the shoes she was wearing were not meant to be used hiking. They were cop shoes, they had a small heal, but if she had any intentions of running, sprinting, chasing, or physical activity, the shoes will allow it. Of course only city cops would wear them so level ground was necessary for the correct function to work, they were not intended for uneven dirt. Gaia turned around and looked at her car, this was it, she was either going or leaving, but as she turned her head something caught her eye, there was a line under her car, as if there were a straight crack in the ground. She dropped her backpack and walked over to it, it was firm, but as she tapped the ground and stomped, she realized that there was something under the ground. Before she knew what she was doing she got in her car and moved the car back until she could see the crack on the ground. She examined a little sprout of grass and pulled, the hatch was too heavy for her to open it all the way back, there has to be a way for a single person to do it. So as she looked around she spotted two perfectly crafted sticks that would easily hold the hatch open, so she grabbed one and pushed the hatch up and tucked the stick under a perfect match of a hole. She grabbed the other stick and placed it under its own corresponding hole, finally she looked into the hole, it was very dark but as she put one foot inside a light turned on and she saw an F-150 planted inside. So this was simply a garage, if her father ever needed to go out he would simply jump in here. This was no secret lair, just a garage, she would have preferred if this was the secret lair so she could sit back and relax. Instead she walked out and closed the hatch, knowing that a hike was still ahead.
She grabbed the back pack again and began to walk; there were trees and trees and more trees! She had a thought of when she watched the Blair Witch Project, it certainly was fitting, but she knew that movie had been a fake, even if for whatever reason the events that took place were actually real, she didn’t believe in magic, she wasn’t even sure she believed in god. The sun was going to go down soon, half an hour at least. And before she knew it half an hour came and went, and she was walking in near dusk.
She looked in her backpack and had to decide between a flashlight, and night-vision goggles, and since she had always been the gadget type, she chose the goggles. She always liked being inconspicuous, unexpected, pretty much invisible. She knew that she must look a little funny, wearing survivor’s back pack while she looked like a business woman with night-vision goggles. She began to think of taking off her shoes and walking barefoot before she saw bright white lights in her goggles; she slipped them off and found herself starring into a small cabin with a chimney with smoke coming out.
She stopped, now or never.
“Freeze.” It was her father’s voice.
“Dad?” She asked, knowing quite clearly it was him.
“Gaia!” Her dad sounded surprised and she turned to see him, he was standing in blue jeans and a red sweater, but with a gun in his hands, and even though it was dark she could still see her father’s blue eyes starring at her, with a startled but happy expression.
She stepped forward and hugged him pushing the gun aside, it was the right thing to do, she had grown up a lot and she was no longer angry at her feelings, she now realized that she missed her father, and she needed to express it. Then her father wrapped his arms around her and they stood there in the dark, in a forest hugging each other.
“I’ve missed you so much,” She found herself saying.
“I’ve missed you too,” Her father said and kissed her forehead.
“I thought you were—you know,” Her father said in an attempt of an apology.
“No, its okay,” She said to him and looked up at him.
“Come on, come inside,” Her father said and they both walked into the cabin.
It was homey, surprisingly modern but it would remind anyone of home.
“You, you look like a cop,” Her father said with a smile.
“Thanks,” She said and smiled back.
“I didn’t expect you,” Her father said and then frowned, “Of course there’s no way I would have been able to expect you, but all the same, I’m glad you’re here.”
“Thanks Dad, I just, I needed someone, I’m on vacation right now,” She said to him.
“Let’s go into the kitchen, I’ll make some hot chocolate while we talk,” Her father said and they hurried into his warm kitchen.
“So tell me, how’s the FBI treating you? I get the feeling you’ve managed to solve a big case which has promoted you to an agent,” Her father said with a laugh. But even though her father was trying to sound cheery, she knew that there was a lot to make up for.
“Well yes, I solved a huge case actually,” She said, “But I put someone else’s life at risk and in turn of my recklessness and my irresponsibility, that person is dead.”
“I don’t think I fell in love, but I found myself intimate with someone, and I let my feelings get involved with what I was doing.” And before Gaia knew it she spilled every detail about the case, about how she had felt betrayed by Catherine, and how she had gotten Will involved with everything. She told him about how she had disobeyed orders and about how she had risked not only her life, but many people at once.
“Gaia,” Her father stopped her rambling.
“Gaia, there’s nothing I can say that will make you feel better. There’s no experience I can share that will make things right, but I will help you face reality, we make our choices, and we must live with them,” Her father said and looked at her straight in the eyes. She nodded and stared at her hands, he was right; she had to live with her decisions, even if she did feel like complete shit, it was something she had to endure.
They sat for a while in silence, and they both knew that she had realized what life held, and what it would bring. The silence was a little comforting, because both of them were in complete understanding. Gaia found it inevitable, she began to realize that her father’s destiny was also hers; she had been born without a fear gene which would be an advantage in her life.
“Dad, I came to you because ironically, you’re the best person in the world that could possibly understand what I’m going through,” She stopped to take a deep breath. “But for my whole life you were the last I would ever think of, but now that I have a better perspective of life, thanks.”
“I know Gaia,” Her father said with a small smile. “Don’t you wish I would have been a computer salesman instead?” Her father’s eyes twinkled and he laughed. “Maybe if Oliver and I would have grown up to be something else, we would have a normal life. But I think in a way that we were destined to do this, I think I was destined to be born a twin, and I think I was destined to work at the CIA, and I also think that I was destined to have a daughter that could not feel fear. And I think that like me, you know that this job is the only thing that will feel right.”
They both paused again, back when they had encounters; they had been uncomfortable and full of awkward silences, but now they felt even enjoyable, maybe this was what the FBI meant about normal life. Maybe this was what Americans all around the country did; they just sit together because it’s comfortable.
“So how did you end up here?” She asked her dad gesturing towards the kitchen.
“Well I went on a mission, which I kind of messed up in,” He said with a grin, “Since your graduation I had been working on it, and to try to explain it to you all about it would be really boring Gaia.” Her dad teased her in respond to her curious expression.
“Some day you’ll be doing top secret missions too Gaia, and you’ll come across some of my unfinished business,” and as her dad said this, Gaia felt like a strange father daughter moment. Like when a father tries to explain to his sixteen year old about driving….
“Anyways this place suits me well, there’s no telephone lines or cable, but that’s okay cause I’ve got all the goods I need right here,” Her dad pointed to a bookshelf, among the collection she managed to spy out Moby Dick, her dads’ favorite.
“And since you’re here I take that Rodriguez has given the okay,” her dad said mostly to himself. “This means we can leave and take off for the Bahamas.”
“The Bahamas? Nah,” She shook her head, “I kind of wanted to visit New York…. Well I’ve wanted to visit New York; I haven’t been there since…. I left.”
“Definitely, we’ll get on the road as soon as possible,” Her dad said, “Or we can get a private plane and get there in an hour.” Her father added with a smile.

Sentimental Man
Bailey was worried, for the first time since she and Ed started dating she felt like something was wrong in the relationship.
Ed had called her Gia during sex, she was sure of it; she had heard him call her Gia while they were both in the act of the most powerful intimate expression. She always thought they were making love, she had never called it sex before, but Ed had called her something the night before and it sure as hell wasn’t Bailey.
Ed was a sentimental man, which was one of the main reasons why she fell in love with him.
“Maybe it was just your imagination,” Claire suggested next to her. But Bailey knew what she had heard; there was no doubt that Ed had said someone’s name. “And in the bright side at least he said the L word,” Claire added.
“I don’t know, we were in the moment when he said it. He said it after he called me Gia, odds are that even if he did mean it, it wasn’t directed at me,” She said in a teary voice.
“Well at least tell me how he performed last night,” Claire asked her with a mischievous grin on her face.
Bailey blushed and smiled at Claire, “It was great of course….. Maybe better than ever, he’s like a sex machine. He could just lay there without moving, and I’ll do him anyway and know that I’ll still have a good time. He just, pumps me up,” Bailey said dreamily. It was true; for once she could talk about her sex life because her boyfriend was a sex star.
She remembered feeling Ed’s strong arms plant her firmly, and she loved how Ed always grunted and moaned when they were together. Feeling his supple hard body was part of why their sex was getting better, according to Ed years after he became crippled, he lost a majority of his leg muscle and gained much more muscle weight on to his arms. But now that he was skateboarding more and using his arms less, approximately three and a half years after his surgery, he had built almost all of the muscle he lost back and managed to build a super body. Ed wasn’t a hunk, but he certainly wasn’t a skinny skater boy anymore.
“It’s getting pretty late, it’s almost nine, we should go back to the dorm,” Claire noted after a while.
“You’re right, let’s get out of here, but you should probably go ahead, I’m going to try and get a hold of Eddy,” She said and waved goodbye to Claire.
Bailey loved boys; she had grown up in Ocean City of course, which was a huge vacationing spot during the summer, but heaven all year round, except for hurricanes sometimes. She packed her things into her heavy backpack and flipped open her phone and speed dialed Ed’s number, he always picked up in his house, sometimes and very rarely his mother picked up, but it didn’t bug her anyway.


“Hey,” Ed said into the phone.
“Hey babe,” Bailey responded.
“What’s up?” He asked.
“Hey can I come over?” Bailey asked him, and Ed felt a little confused, they had spent the night together the night before because Ed had specifically known that he needed to do work.
“Um, I’m kind of doing home—”
“Yeah I know, I know Eddy, but we need to talk,” Bailey said to him quickly, Ed felt a little butterfly inside his stomach.
“Um, yeah, sure,” Ed said cheerily, but he knew something was wrong, why the hell did she want to see him now if they had seen each other the night before?
“Okay, I’ll be over soon,” And with that Bailey hung up the phone.
Ed sat on his bed a little confused; he and Bailey had never had a talk before. Bailey was not the type of girl to fuss which was another reason why he was fond of her; you didn’t find a girlfriend like that everyday. Did she find out that Gaia called him? No way, he thought, there’s no way Bailey could be some super spy or something. No he doubted that, but why would Bailey want to talk to him? She didn’t even know about Gaia, or any of the wild adventures that he had ever been involved in. Ed felt a little guilty about not telling her the specifics about Gaia, or how important she had been to him, and Ed had no intentions of telling her. Gaia had been an epic in his life, it had been the great story that he would tell his grandchild one day, but until then he was not ready to talk about it.
Knock. Knock.
Ed finally stood up and walked out of his room; lucky for them his parents went out with his sister to talk to some lawyers, but all the same he was feeling a little nervous.
“Hey Ed,” Bailey said to him as he opened the door, she strode inside and began to take off her jacket. He knew already that a mighty big conversation might be looming over the horizon.
“Hey B, what’s going on?” He asked her with a raised eyebrow, he sat next to her on the couch.
“Well, see I needed to talk to you about something,” Bailey said to him, Ed could tell that she was a little worried herself.
“Okay, go ahead,” He said to her, he wanted to let her know that whatever she wanted to say she could, there was nothing to worry about.
“Okay,” Bailey agreed but she stood up and walked around nervously around the coffee table.
“Whatever Bailey, nothing to fear,” He assured her, and added a reassuring smile.
“Okay Ed, it’s just, the thing is that yesterday night, you told me something,” Bailey said to him, and he almost smiled, she was referring to the fact that he told her that he loved her. That had to be it, that’s why she was so nervous, she just wanted to make sure that he meant it. “And Ed—you, I don’t even know where to start, the thing is that—I’m worried, because—Agh!”
“Calm down, it’s okay Bailey, I remember what happened last night, and you don’t have anything to worry about, because I do love you,” He stood up and walked over to her, he was about 5 inches taller than her, and she smiled for a second.
“Ed, you called me Gia last night while we were making love,” Bailey said to him. Ed almost opened his mouth to deny he had ever said such a thing, but half a second later he was dumbstruck. He hadn’t called her Gia, he had called her Gaia and Bailey had caught him in the act.
The silence stretched long enough to reveal the truth in his eyes, and he knew that Bailey knew that she had caught him.
“What?” Bailey almost yelled and he could see the anger in her eyes, her pretty blue eyes had formed two small wrinkles in between.
“Bailey—” He was caught in words, he wasn’t sure what to say, he could either keep denying it, which was stupid because they both knew he was caught. The best thing was to apologize and possibly, maybe explain. He almost rolled his eyes, there goes the whole grandpa story he was planning on.
“Bailey I’m so sorry,” He managed to let out.
“So you imagined I was another girl while you were doing me!” Bailey’s words cut through him like a knife.
“No! Of course not, I know who I was with, it just slipped out, and I didn’t even know I had said it!” He said defensively, but that was not the right thing to say, he needed to apologize.
“That doesn’t change the fact that when we were together you unconsciously said another girl’s name!” Bailey uttered, his heart broke for her, because her tears were falling fast and quick. “So who is she Ed? Who’s this Gia huh?”
“Well, I—I didn’t say Gia, because I never met a girl named Gia, well I don’t know maybe I did, but I didn’t say Gia, I—I was referring to another girl,” He stuttered and placed his face in his hands, he let himself collapse on to the sofa, time to come clean was coming sooner than he thought.
“I never told you something, or of someone.” He said quietly, it was so quiet in the apartment that he could here Bailey’s quiet sobs, and he felt like her tears were just more examples to add to the list of why he was such an asshole.
“Don’t stop,” Bailey whispered and sat on the other sofa.
“I, I’m not sure I can talk about this,” He said quietly, his own thoughts were penetrating against him, they didn’t want to be reveal, too much pain to recall….
“Ed, don’t you think that this is the least you can do?” Bailey asked him, she had a determined tone and he knew that he owed her at least the truth.
“Well, I never told you for a reason Bailey, Gaia was a big part of my life….” He turned to look into Bailey’s eyes, she wanted to know….
“Well, it all started when I was still in high school, when I was a senior, I met a girl during the year. A girl named Gaia Moore—she was, well—do you want me to be honest?” He asked her, he could only recall his experience with Gaia Moore in one way, and to talk about her in any other way was something that he didn’t know how to do….
“Was she your girlfriend?” Bailey asked him.
“Well, she was more than that, she was my best friend—she was the only girl I ever wanted to understand. Like I said, she was new to school, I wasn’t new to girls, I’ve had previous meetings with other girls. But Gaia Moore was different, when I first met her, she insulted me, and this might sound weird but that day I fell in love with her…. It’s an understatement but, I felt like she was the only real girl around. And everyday after that I talked to her, she was the type of girl that you just knew she was hiding something, and you really wanted to get to know that girl, and you wanted to know why she hurt so much…. So after a while we became best friends, and I wanted her so bad, I wanted her to see the guy, not the wheelchair guy that I was….” Ed remembered those painful times, when he thought that he might never kiss Gaia Moore…. “Well Gaia and I went through hurtles, our friendship was tested, you can say that Gaia was tested all the time. And all I wanted to do was help her…. I loved Gaia; I loved her before she even looked at me in that way. We put up with more than I could ever explain, in fact I believe that it all led up to us, possibly, I can’t say that the highlight of her life would be me, I doubt that, Gaia is an exciting girl. She is a woman who’s out of this world… but when she lets you see her, then you see more of the beautiful woman inside her…. Finally when we got together, it didn’t last long, I caught her cheating on me, or I didn’t, I thought I had. But I didn’t, I had stopped talking to her for a long time, and I felt brain dead throughout that time. Then without warning she came to me, gave me a hug, and left New York City forever…. I found out the next day in the paper that her ex-boyfriend Jake Montone died that night she left, I’m not sure what happened, even though I have an idea….. According to the newspaper Jake died from a shot to the chest, and Gaia was always followed by dangerous people, everyone wanted to keep people from getting to close to her all the time.”
Ed looked at Bailey and hoped for a sign of understanding, but he saw an expression on her face that he had never seen before. It came across as something like anger and a little inpatient; he thought for a second that she was going to roll her eyes.
“Ed, don’t you think that this is the type of think that you should tell me?” Bailey asked him, he wasn’t sure if she was mad or glad.
“But I wasn’t ready to talk about it,” Ed said defensively, he was only trying to be honest!
“Yes Ed, but don’t you think that if you would have told me we wouldn’t have to go through this? What happened when we had the truth talk? When we were suppose to let the truth all out huh? When were you planning on telling me this, obviously this girl meant a lot to you and the fact that your ex is a psycho murderer—”
“She’s not a murderer! I never said that, and you never knew her!” He shouted, he suddenly found himself on his feet and he could feel a surge of anger running through him. “This is why I didn’t tell you, because you wouldn’t understand, and partly this was a part of my life that was so private and pure, it meant more to me than anything, she meant more to me than anything, she meant more to me than my own two feet!”
“Well basically it sounds like you were obsessed with a girl who always ignored you—”
“There’s more to it than that! It’s not just like you think—I can’t just explain in half an hour, because there was more to her, Gaia—” But he stopped himself, he couldn’t tell Bailey, she obviously didn’t understand, telling her more would jeopardize Gaia’s identity, her secrets, and Gaia didn’t have much, except herself. If he went around and told things like that to just anybody, he shook his head, Bailey wasn’t just anybody. But he had always planned on keeping Gaia secret, even if she wasn’t around to appreciate his character.
“No, this conversation stops here, you obviously don’t understand, and I won’t say anymore because I don’t want to speak anymore about this, get out,” Ed hadn’t meant to say ‘get out,’ but it kind of slipped out, he had obviously expressed that he didn’t want to talk about it, he folded his arms and stared into Bailey’s eyes. Bailey was furious, her cheeks were pink and her light blue eyes were narrowed.
“Okay Ed, see ya around,” Bailey said testily, he wasn’t sure what to do, but just as quick as he blinked she grabbed her coat, ran to the door and slammed her way out.
The whole scene had been cold, obviously Bailey didn’t understand, he took a deep breathe and felt himself relax. They would talk about this sooner or later…. But not tonight, he walked back to his room and collapsed on top of his homework, and drifted into dreams, which ironically, Gaia was in.