Sorry Will Never Cover It

Yeah I guess you all know this by now, I lied.
Now I’m not really sure why I did or what made me do it. Ok I do have a vague idea what made me do it but I am not going to word it because I don’t think you would believe it anyway.
I am sorry for all the pain and suffering I have caused all of you.
It was a very stupid thing to do, and a stupid thing to say.
It makes me sick, and it makes me want to throw up. I can’t believe that I would do such a thing. But I did. And I hate myself for it.
I can’t believe that I betrayed the trust that I had been given, and I seriously can’t believe myself.

When I first came to this board I didn’t really know what it was, I didn’t know what a forum was to be honest. Then I found out what it was and I really became addicted. I found out that there were people here who just as me were addicted to fearless. I never thought for a second that there were people who loved fearless just as much as I did.
I became to love this board and I became to love all the persons on it.
I never thought I could find friends like that who I seriously cared for very deeply. Who I started to really really love. Who made me feel better about myself.
And look what I did…I ruined it. I totally ruined it all, all that trust that was lying between us that you can’t see and you can’t even touch but that was there, I completely ruined it. And there’s no one but me that will take the blame. I can’t erase it like I wish I could.
I know what I have done and I understand that some of you will go on and hate me forever.
And I’ll accept that.

I seriously am sorry, I really am. No words can cover it, sorry doesn’t cover it. It goes deeper than that.
It goes deep within me, I am truly truly sorry.
I don’t expect you to forgive me, and I won’t ask for your forgiveness. I don’t deserve it.
It was weak, it was stupid, it was bitchy, it was hateful, it was idiotic and it was incredibly wrong. I know that some people are very hurt and will never be able to trust me ever again.
For that I am sorry.

If I never got to know YOU, then I'd never feel this pain.
No one's touched my life like YOU have...

To those people who have forgiven me, I can’t thank you enough, and I don’t really deserve it!
I LOVE YOU!

//L

Or are you lying again? Maybe you were just bored?

You weren't sorry until shaz caught you!

You probably didn't hate yourself when everyone on FF and LCBD was praying that you wouldn't DIE. :rolleyes: Felt pretty special then, didn't you?

Well, I agree with everything there!

Really? Then why did you lie? If you're gonna apologize, don't be so dramatic about it and expect us to feel sorry for you, if you can't give us reasons.

i hope your happy now that you ruined friendships.

i just read the HORRIBLE thread of which you lied to everyone. You made everyone fight each other. Do you honesltty think more people on the board is going to forgive yu? Now slowly, members are leaving one by one. ;) hope you had a fun time lying.




THIS IS MY OPIONION AND I HONESTLY DONT CARE WHAT YOU THINK OF IT.

I appreciate the apology, it must have been a hard thing to do. I can't say that I forgive you, because all of this drama really has caused a rift in FF, but I appreciate that you apologized.

I hope that was an HONEST apology, because what you did was cruel...I don't know if I can forgive you..

it sounded really overplayed and not that honest....her apology, I mean...you could at least TELL us why you lied....

Yeah I would like to know that too...why did you to do..I don't understand

wow your right L you dont desevre to be forgiven. you have way to much time on your hands.

Im glad you apologogized to everyone, instead of just a couple of people, but I want to talk to you one and one, just once, to figure this all out. I already said I cant forgive you, and I think a few of these people are right, that your apology was way over played, and it seemed like a gimic*sp?* to get more attention. This all was to get attention and you know it. People loved you the way you were. They loved your stories, they loved your characteristic, they just loved you. I honestly hope that was the real you, and that whole thing wasnt an act, for your own sake. I dont want you here, but im more okay with it now, cause me being against you coming back just made more people want to leave. so make sure we get in touch soon, so I can decide what I think. Although I already know for sure that I wont be able to trust you ever again, and I know for sure that I will never become friendly to you again, but I do want to figure some things out. Now I think Im repeating myself.

P r i

I forgive her, I guess.

ok, L, I am still going to talk to you and all that, but don't be shocked if I'm not as sympathetic and nice to you as I was before. And don't expect me to bare my soul in any way or whatever.

Yeah, it may take a while for ppl to tell you anything again.

well thats what happens when you're not honest...people will always doubt you

It would be hard to accept your apology. The reason we had this huge rift on this board when we have never had one like this before (correct me if I'm wrong) is because of you. It was because of you and your horrible lies that made people worry. I even told my friend about you and she said she didn't believe it and she was right...so it goes to show you that you had us really fooled. If it weren't for Karen and Shaz and Raq and well everyone with their super spy skills (lol) you'd STILL be lying to us.. and perhaps you would have said that you were dead by now.. and what? Just to get attention? A lot of people won't be able to forgive you for this and I am one of them.

im sry, im never accepting your apology. you were like an older sister to me and i lost a great friend cuz of you

hm...she had a lot of little sisters...L, seriously, i still wanna know why you had to let us down? :angry:

i know she hurt everyone's feelings, and i know that she caused a major problem on FF but everyone deserves a second chance no matter what they did. i forgive her...even if its hard for me to trust someone i can still forgive them. i think she is leaving anyways so there is no reason to drag the whole thing out. -_- lets all just move on ?? FF is starting to be all about her and its annoying.

kk, sorry, was just thinking and it refused my anger flames, which were already kinda on the rise. shutting up now. ;)

How do we know "L's" even a girl? She could be some 58 year old man for all we know. :lol: joking, lol

anyone of us could be a 58 yr old man... :shocked: lol ok this is kind of off topic..

yeah...

I'm 56, to be exact. B)

I knew it! I knew it all along! You dirty old man! :stick:

hahaha!! :D

^haha! you guyz are great. i knew there was a reason i joined this site!^

this is so not cool L. did you think we would all laugh about it when it ws over? we were all, including myself, really worried about you. i will NEVER accept your apology. just what were you thinking?

she wasn't thinking.

obviously. a lot of people deffended her, like you mary. i mean, i wasnt one of them, but you stuck by her, and she just screwed you. god.

yeah, I know. :angry:

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You're such a hypocrite Mary, and don't ask me why because it's kind of obvious..when you're in her site you act all civil to her and when you're here you talk crap about her...and when you do that you're no better than she is..this whole thing about what L did is so old...and you guys keep bringing up the same old thing it's actually getting kind of irritating..I wonder why the adminstrators haven't closed this topic yet

woah athena...think you read my mind. I was just thinking last night when I read that why I bother coming here at all.

JUST CLOSE THIS

I'm the hypocrite? Funny, I could have sworn it was YOU who said a couple days ago people who post in these topics have no lives. If it's so PAINFUL for you to post in this thread, simply don't post here. Get back to your other fascinating life which you say I don't have.

If you don't want the topic to continue, STOP posting about it if you hate it so much. I'm not forcing you to post here...

uh-oh :unsure: ok, I'll try putting this in a nicer way. Why're you mad again? I thought we we all over this, at least enough to stop going at each other's throats about it.

OK! You know what I KNOW what i did was more than stupid I KNOW that alright and i have to live with it! If you want me to punish me in some way I can enlighten you that I have got it...the worst way possible. No one can know how i feel about it. Becasue it was without a doubt the most stupid thing i have done in my whole life. And I DO have reasons and I am not gonna word them.