GUARDIAN ANGEL

By: Louise

Dedicated to: All the people on this planet who have to fight to stay alive

Some people have it all, some people have power, some people have love and then there are some people who have pain.
Some people have pain so deep that you can’t even imagine what it feels like, so deep that sometimes you don’t know if it’s real, it makes you wonder how far you are from death and if it is worth all the pain.
Yes it is, it is worth all the pain because when you know that you are touched with love that can move any mountain you know that it is worth it.
When you are one step from death and one step from being alive, what do you do, what do you say, what emotions are there in that body of yours but most of all how do you keep the faith?
How do you believe when you know that all hope is gone, how do you get through the worst thing that can happen to a young girl, how do you survive?
Is there a guardian angel that is always hovering over your right shoulder, protecting you from danger and death?
Is she always there when you know that all hope is gone, watching out for you when no one else is, is she the one who gives you strength when all hope is gone?
This is the story of Laura Ward and her struggle through tragedy, pain and hopelessness.

She makes me calm,
and she whispers to me
everything I tell you

There is someone beside me,
she has the most beautiful soul of all souls
She is love and she is hope
and she tells you…

i like it its sad

Thanx..its supposed to be...have u read my darkness?

yes but i havent posted there yet i like it its suspenseful

Yeah it is... :P

haha lol whats going to happen next?

Í'm going to write like in two persons point of view, first it's her boyfriend and then it's her and chapter one is at the hospital, like an introduction!

aww this is sooo sad i love it

Thanx... :D

ur welcome!! do u like my new avatar??/ does it look familar???????? tee hee hee

Love it..and yeah! LOL! :D

lol lol i knew u would lol :D

LOOL, u r really full of yourself...jk..lol..I love u anyway! :P

Hey! It's rockin' so far!

Good so far!

it sounds great keep it up!! looking forward to it

Good, it will come!

When a wild rose blossoms the whole forest sings, beneath the leaves of the trees the children of the winds are resting to a song about a rose…

1. THE ROSE

I looked at her when she was sleeping in her hospital bed, looking pale, so very pale. Her skin felt clammy under my fingers, but her eyes were closed and her breathing was even. That dark brown hair of hers was fanned out over her shoulders in small waves. Even though she looked like she was about to break she looked very beautiful to me.
I know this is stupid, but to me she’s always been the reason that God made a girl.
She had been feeling weirdly ill for some time now and the doctors had made some tests, we were waiting for the results.
When I looked at her I felt like I would give anything to make her pain go away – but I knew I couldn’t. Whatever it was I knew I would never leave her, I will never leave my girlfriend for anything. I’d just gotten her back, we’d broken up for a stupid misunderstanding when we should have been together all along. She had thought that I’d loved someone else. But how could I tell her that I could never love someone else, how could I tell her that she was my treasure.
Yes I know a lot of guys would never say anything like that – it’s stupid. But when it comes to Laura Ward I can’t help myself – she has a supernatural power over me.
I’m just a normal guy falling for her all over again.
Looking at her while she slept was like watching over a princess – I just wanted her to be alright. I wanted her to know that I was ready to give her my whole world. Her parents were abroad, that wasn’t a good thing. If this really was something serious what would she do, what would I do? They had gone to visit someone in Tokyo – I didn’t have all the details but it was extremely serious. We were in New York and they were in Tokyo, that was bound to get complicated.

Laura had turned eighteen only two days ago, I am nineteen.
She didn’t have any brothers or sisters, but she knew how to take care of herself.
But sometimes things just happen and you have no idea why they do. There’s not a thing you can do about it, you just have to face it the best way possible.
Her parents knew their girl, they knew she would be alright. I had convinced them that I would look out for her and that she could stay at my place as well. You don’t realize it at first but being together with someone is like having two families. Our families were like the closest people ever, my sister loved Laura like her own and everyone in my family was feeling a bit protective over her these few last weeks.
She had complained about her vision that had always been perfect, now sometimes she saw two of everything. She had headaches that were killing her and she’s often tired. Sometimes she just falls asleep right after we come home from school.
She often wakes up in the middle of the night because something hurts and she is looking at me with those wide, innocent eyes. She’s looking at me with pain in her eyes, I know she wants to hide it but sometimes it just shines through because it’s so strong.
It’s like she’s begging me to take it all away, to make it stop – and if I had the power I would.
At those times all I can do is hold her, all I can do is tell her that everything is going to be alright. I just hope I’m right.
We often fall asleep that way, with her resting so close to me like a little child. All I want to do is keep her safe, I want to take all of her fears away.
She is strong, brave and tough even though she doesn’t know it.
The fact is that she is scared and who wouldn’t be? She is scared of what might happen and so am I.
I could almost feel that this wasn’t something small that needed some medicine and then it would all be over. This was something bigger, something more serious than I’d ever faced.
If it was something of course her parents would be informed, but I still knew that I had to be strong for her.
I might have to be there doing things she couldn’t, whatever that might be. There wasn’t anything I wouldn’t do for her though.

Holding her hand was more to give her comfort more than anything else, but it gave me strength as well.
The doctor would come any minute now, any minute and we would know for sure what was happening to my girl.
She is my girl, the pearl that I had set out to find. The wild rose that could grow anywhere, giving a guy peace. The wildness of her was giving me peace, in wonder and admiration she stands and just smiles.
That smile that can light up the darkest night.
I had found her, I had found this amazing girl that was slowly turning into a beautiful young lady with a charm that could get any guy to fall.
Whatever she did she did it with grace, now she was starting to loose it. I noticed it even before she did, she was getting weaker.
That was why we were here now to get it fixed, to find out what was wrong.
I’d met her a year ago at a beach party that one of my friends was hosting, a friend that knew her friend.
When I came there hearing all the laughter, the only light being the fire and the moon that was reflected in the dark ocean – I’d thought it was lame.
There were just some stupid girls who were being too giggly for my taste.
I thank God that I didn’t leave as I’d meant to do, I thank God that I stayed.
When her friends were away and mine were fooling around we were alone.
She was wearing a short blue dress, it looked like silk to me. Her hair was dancing around her in shiny waves and her skin was showing the tan that looked darker in the lack of light.
Laura had to be the most beautiful girl in the world, I remember thinking that anyway. With her Mexican blood, she had features making her look like an exotic princess.
We sat down and then we talked and we talked. We talked a million years about everything and nothing.
She told me all about school, how everything was going downhill and that her boyfriend was starting to get aggressive. How could anyone be aggressive towards her? It just didn’t make sense. She told me all about the expectations she was expected to live up to, everybody thought that she had it all but on the inside she was really insecure.
She was insecure in that beautiful, yet innocent way.
I told her that she shouldn’t think about what other people think, just look at herself and think about what she thinks. She obviously hadn’t thought of that.
Obviously I wanted her to break up with her boyfriend. I told her that she shouldn’t be around him if he was starting to get aggressive, it could lead to something dangerous and painful.
When I told her that she just looked at me, then she gently grabbed my face and kissed me.
It was like she was blowing the entire universe in that one kiss. We ended up rolling around in the sand, it was one of those nights you don’t forget.
It didn’t take a long time for us to be together, those first weeks we were like addicted to each other.
We knew everything about one another and everything she told me was just as important as the air that I breathed.
With the exception of our fight, which led to the break-up we were perfect. Mostly she was perfect; there wasn’t anything I didn’t like about her.
Just knowing that I had the ability to make her laugh that laugh was an unusual feeling.

Then her parents left and she was slowly beginning to feel sick. She was beginning to depend more on me, not that I minded but it could turn into something serious. It could turn into something dangerous.
We looked up a doctor, who sent us here and now we would know.
A part of me didn’t want to know because that thing that was called hope was slowly getting smaller.
I wanted her to get out of whatever it was; I wanted her to be ok.
Very softly I pressed my lips against her cheek, feeling her cold skin against my lips.
My rose was sleeping, not aware of what was happening. It was better that way.
Sometimes it’s hard to understand the reasons why.
What I do know is that no one has ever touched my life like she has. Of course I can be strong for her, which I will be.
But there is no living without her, because once we were two, that was a time ago –now we are one.

Aw...I WANT HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Good some far. Dying for you to let something slip. MUHAhAHA!

Yeah he is sweet... ;)

I finally have time to asnwer to this, and let me just say that I love it sooooooo much!! -_- its sad tho:(

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Yeah its supposed to be sad... :(

you have to continue!!

Yeah I'm planning to...I just have to base this on some info first... ;)

awww, omg that is soo cute, so sweet, keep writing!! plz!!

I am..lol :D Its gonna be sad though!

You are here when darkness is falling, you’re here whenever I fall
I can rest my head against you, because my thoughts have a place in your soul.

2. SOMETHING

It was hard to open my eyes because it hurt. When I opened them I met the gaze of Rick Stone and managed a small smile. He was truly a wonder, my boyfriend he was so gorgeous. He was sitting on the edge of the hospital bed getting a closer look at me, brushing the few strands away that covered my view.
For a moment I couldn’t do anything but just look at him, with his blond hair curling just behind his ears, and his warm brown eyes that was watching me with worry. The hand that was holding mine felt so strong around my smaller one.
To have him here with me meant so much, now I wouldn’t have to go through this alone. Not that I ever would, he was always there wanting to be there for me. Ever since it started he was always there, not just him but his whole family as well.
But Rick was still the one who was with me, he was my watcher, my protector.

The first time I’d noticed something with my vision was when we were sitting in the kitchen and he was sitting next to me. Suddenly when I reached for my glass of water I touched air.
“Where did it go?” I’d asked.
He just took my hand and closed it around the glass. That was when I understood: I was seeing double.
I was scared and started to cry, he’d just held me like he comforted a little child.
When we were in an English class one day I knew he was watching me, I don’t really remember anything more than that because I had fallen asleep.
When he woke me so we could go to the nurse, I’d had one of those killing headaches that felt like my whole head was about to explode. He could see that, it probably shone headache in my eyes and he had just carried me. It seemed so natural to him, but to me it wasn’t he was so sweet and he thought it as obvious.
But when we were at the nurse’s and he was getting me water I had fallen asleep again. Then I woke up and everything was normal, but it scared me and it worried him.
The nights were hell, some of them had been the worst nights of my life. It was some of the worst pain I’d ever felt. You can’t put it into words what it felt like, worse than any explosion, worse than knives stabbing your whole body it was just pain.
Nothing helped either, sometimes it could last the whole night and there was nothing I could do about it. My whole body would shake with tears when he held me close, he looked as if he was in as much pain as I was when he saw me struggling. Then there were those nights when it would pass as fast as it had come. But almost every night I was shaking in his arms, tears burning my cheeks. I was clinging to him like he was my life thread; somehow it felt easier and less painful when he was there. His arms felt so strong when they held me and his words were comforting.
He was my rock in the raging storm that wanted me swept away.
Then after many visits at different doctors they’d sent us here, all the tests had taken long time. Different doctors had felt and squeezed at different parts of my body and Rick had always been there. He’d even looked angry when he saw that it’d hurt when they squeezed where I was sensitive.

Soon we would get the final results and I couldn’t help it, I was really scared now.
“How are you feeling?” Rick asked, pulling me back to reality.
“Ok, I guess”, I answered.
He positioned himself so I could lean against him. I could hear his heart pounding, it was strange but it was comforting.
“Rick?”
“Yeah?”
“I’m scared”, I whispered shaking when I looked into his eyes.
“I know”, he said holding me closer wrapping his arms strongly around me.
I kissed him lightly wanting to breathe him, wanting his calm to be a part of me. He kissed me back putting all his love in that one kiss, giving me a warm feeling inside.
When he held me I could feel his lips in my hair tickling me and making me laugh.
Love was the best comfort, to know that someone loved you so deeply gave you strength.
Although I could tell that he was worried, he had to notice that I was so much lighter.
That only made that look in his eyes more evident, that look that shined with protection and something deeper than affection.
His hand gently touched my skin feeling how cold it was then he kissed the spot he’d touched, leaving tingling warmth there.

There was a knock on the door and I held his hand more tightly, he squeezed it reassuringly.
A doctor came in, his name was Pete Brown. He had been the one who’d seen me first.
“Laura, I have to look at your eyes again”, he said.
“Ok”, I said.
I wondered what that was all about, why did he want to look at my eyes?
He looked at them, looking into them very closely and I began to realize deep within my soul that something was wrong.
“What do you see?” Rick asked putting his arm around me, when he realized that I shook.
“Yes”, he said. “I’m suspecting…” he was silent for what felt like an eternity. “I’m suspecting that…” he was silent again. “I’m suspecting that it is something.”
The seriousness in the words made me freeze.
I understood, as he’d said that it was something. But what?
“So I’ll see if I can set an appointment for a CT-scan”, he said.
That was when Rick seemed to wake up, he carefully got up from the bed and faced the doctor.
“This has to be done today, right now”, he said.
He was firm, but I guess he was tired of running from doctor to doctor who’d sent us to different places. This was serious.
“You’re not going to set a date because my girlfriend is going to have that X-ray today”, he said furiously.
He refused to leave until we got the X-ray.
And we did get it, at last we finally got it.
Of course it would take time to analyze, that couldn’t be done in a heartbeat.

When Rick knew we would get an answer tomorrow we could leave.
The world outside was so amazingly beautiful and I was so scared.
I looked at him, the wind blowing his hair out of place and the sunshine that played in his hair.
He had his arm around my shoulders, and I had my hand in the hip-pocket of his jeans.
“What do you think they’ll find?” I whispered trying not to sound as scared as I really felt.
“I don’t know”, he said pulling me closer.
“It was good that we got it today though”, I said when we walked up the road to his house.
“Yeah, I swear if we hadn’t…”
“Yeah”, I smiled.
“I just want you to know that whatever might happen, you’ll never be alone”, he said taking my hand kissing it lightly.
But right then and there when we were standing under their archway that lead to the house I felt so lost.
Under the archway that used to have red roses under the summer, red roses clinging to each other making it look so alive, there we stood.
The winter would come soon and everything seemed to fade away. I felt myself getting weaker and I knew somewhere inside that the darkness had somehow taken hold of me. It was really falling over me, making me fall.
He just held me when he saw the look in my eyes, he just wrapped his arms around me protectively.
He didn’t know what the CT-scan would show, neither did I.
All I knew was that you didn’t do it for nothing.
The way I had been feeling, I knew something wasn’t right – something was terribly wrong.
But to know that he would always be there for me whatever might happen, to know that he would never leave me for anything it was too big to put into words.
Because I knew now that if I fell he would be the one to catch me.

LOUISE!!!!!!!!! WHY do you make me fall in love with EVERY character's bf!! It was great, keep it up!

LOOOLZ! Jeez I don't know...to annoy u...jk! Thanx...

Ah! L!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's okay, I still luv u!

Yeah, :hi: I luv u too!

awwwwwwwwwwww awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww louise stop it man......dere 2 many guys 2 love now

Hehe..yeah...lol.. :P

Hey L! My email's not working so I might not be able to email you for a while! Okay, just thought I'd tell you in case you think I've dropped of the earth or something...lol!

Ok that's cool, really there's always ff and if u wanna tell me something or vice versa there's always the pms. LOLZ! ;)

MORE!

Working on it, but the next chapter is kinda hard to write since I cant make up my mind!!!!

lol well hurry

Yeah I am...have u read my update on darkness?