After a week of court we got the sentence today for my stepfather, we've been waiting for two years for justice....He gets 5 years incarceration, with time served counting already so really 3, life time sex offender registry and 20 years probation, with time served in incarceration counting as well.

We were looking at a hung jury or in the worst case having to come back in 2 or 3 years and do a retrial for it because my stepfather's lawyer is a douche. Our ADA (assistant district attorney for those of you playing along at home) put forth the plea because at this point in the game, that would be the only thing that would stick.

I have no family aside from my husband's parents and my siblings, as my mother and stepfather's family are all contending that I've somehow made money on this deal and am a "booze guzzling hussy" (for srsly i couldn't make this up if i tried), so I and my siblings have been officially outted from the family there.

I"ve testified about things that most people don't even think about let alone want to know about, I've stood strong for my siblings, the children who I raised and who might as well be my babies (and for all technical purposes are, short of that whole popping out of the vagoo thing), and I'm utterly exhausted.

My mom fucked up and picked a shitty man the first time and then she turns right around and picks another winner. Thanks Mom, thanks so fucking much for messing up my mind and my development. Thanks for encouraging the bastard and selling us out to the wolf for your own pleasure.

Perhaps now it just makes a little sense why I've always been a "mother" raven to you all. Why I always have encouraged you to come to me if you needed help, and why I've always tried so fucking hard to make this clan a SAFE PLACE. Because when you don't have anywhere to go it destroys you and I've seen it happen for so long that I can't stand the people I care about going through even the slightest pain. All of you, are included in this, because its what I do and who I am, I know I'm not the most active person, I'm not the most random, or the wittiest. But damn it if I won't fight for each an every one of you until my last dying breath.

I know for some time I've been very stand off-ish and closed and for that behavior I apologize. But please consider it. And remember if nothing else that all you need to ever do is a call or a PM or a text or an IM and I will do everything in my power to help you....And when I will one day look back at this, all I will be able to do or think is why i couldn't, or didn't do more. I will fight and be an advocate for you.

In short perhaps if nothing else, if you live in an abusive home, don't stay there. Call someone, talk to a consoler, or go straight to the police. Because no one should ever have to live like this.