We're all so grown up. ;( Not old. Just grown up and everything that comes up with growing up makes me a little sad every time.

Discuss.

What makes you sad about it?

I mean, sometimes I look back fondly on when a cardboard box was this amazing windfall to my little seven-year-old self and when I didn't have to worry about how many calories were in my ice-cream, but it's not all bad. I've seen and done some really amazing things in my little eighteen-year existance, and I'm going to do more. As are we all, really.
And that's what life is. Sure, when we're little, simpler things made us really happy - but it was a limited sort of happiness. When we get bigger, we can feel bigger things, and although this brings larger sorrows, it also brings greater joys.

But that's just what I think...

I'll never grow up. Simple things still make me happy.

We're all grown-up.(somehow, I guess.)

You, you're just plain old.

Yeah, kinda miss those old times when I can actually chat with someone from AT, RP, get all excited over something in this forum(lol. I know, kinda lame, but hey, I love this place. ^^) and all those stuffs.

Growing up or whatever, I won't change a part of me. I'll always keep the kid inside of me and I'll always keep that simple transparent smile. Yeah, so when I happen to stumble with someone I haven't seen from a long time, s/he will always see that same smile and be reminded of who this stoopid-always-smiling-and-goes-to-where-the-wind-brings-him is. Yeah, or something. XD

Sometimes, people think they're growing up and they so wanted to change so quickly and badly that they tend to forget who they really are and get lost somewhere in the road. Oh well...

Hey wait! You're teasing me about me sometimes thinking of the past but who's the one being sentimental and posting a topic? O_O;

I've said it a million times and I'll say it again, growing up/maturity/and all those related stuffs... they're overrated. ;)

Kid at heart. XD lol.

I'm not so much sad that we've all grown up physically and mentally. Now that we're older, there's so much more stuff to talk about. Not just "Oh yeah, that game is soooo cool lololol". While yeah, we still do that xD but we talk about LIFE and stuff now.

But...because we've grown up, we've grown apart quite a bit.

We used to talk to eachother like...all the time. On here, in the IRC and AIM chats, AIM, MSN, YIM..etc etc.

Hell, even I don't talk to everybody on AIM as much as I used to anymore..and everyone used to tease me that I seem to always be online ._.

Another thing that makes me sad is that I have fond memories of not paying attention in class and talking to everyone on here. XD 6th period...end of my school day, and all of the east/central coasters were already out of school and online already. Haha. Kept me company and kept me sane. Haha.

But yeah...it's sad. But all the more reason to have AT Roadtrip :3

lol.

OT:

I don't have AIM anymore so yeah... YM ID: eyjaynizel

LOL. Just incase. rofl. XD

I just remembered something, WAAAAAY back then, I was one of the lucky one's who knows stuffs about photoshop thus giving me advantage of making sigs and so on. Now, everybody's an artist. XD Kinda cool, makes me feel like somehow I influenced some people somehow. (lol. Yeah right. XD)

Well I'll be the first to admit that you, Krystle, Peter, and Cory all influenced me with sig making and stuff. I used to just look upon everyone's stuff and be like "Man, I wish I could do that."

And while I'm certainly still a long ways away from being as good as you all, at least I can do it now xD

Well...see...I think Im back to where I started about 3 years ago...where I was pretty much out all week and only home to talk to people on the weekends...then it was school, now its work and tafe...

Its kind of annoying though...because it means I cant keep up with you people as much as I would have...

But in the main Im actually alot happier than I have been for a long time and so I think its a good thing in a way...that Im grown up (somewhat) of course...

BTW, KT, you're still on AT like all the time...just because you're not on AIM doesnt mean you're not online constantly...XD

Exactly what I was thinking!!!

I'm not being nostalgic. I'M HAVING A EXISTENTIAL CRISIS. jkfhkajhakj. I can't say I'm happy but I'm not all that miserable either. It's hard to gauge stuff these days. I wish I can be more but I'm still here being nothing... doing nothing to change it. INSANE. I'm glad to see everyone moving on along and being happy. I wish I had that but I'm stuck pondering being stuck. Does that make sense?

I wish things were more simple. I wish I can move along just fine. I can't. And things will never be the same... which is fine but still disconcerting at times.

Nostalgic or not. This is worth talking about.

Life is simple, we're the one's making it complicated.

Try loving for a change, go get yourself a boyfriend or something or maybe just having a dream or... just be thankful and try appreciating those little things you have.

You're just lost in the road and you don't know what you want with your life.

I stopped wearing all those important things in my life, it's hard to live a life based on the past and I just realized that I still need to create a better present. I didn't threw all of them though, I just put them in a box for me to be reminded of everything.

So, 35 views and 8 posts later, we're now stucked with this small problem. What's the realization we're talking about? We're all just a bunch of confused people with mixed emotions right now I guess.

I'm sorry but I fucking hate it when people give me that advise. Your life sucks, get a boyfriend and make it all better. Wow niiiiice. It's bloody perfect. You win an award for it.

No I'm not really pissed at this point. Annoyed, probably. I've had that same advise given to me last year and it's NOT the answer I'm looking for.

You're as lost as I am.

wahh!
I thought this was a nice topic. ._.;

anywhoozles, I'm usually on aim and don't mind a few people imming me. ^_~
AIM = inn particular

it's true. We've all changed; but I doubt any of us changed for the worse. We just are more busy is all. Growing up means more stuff going on is all! @_@
Anyways, I don't think there's any use looking to the past too much. We're in the present; might as well make the best of it! :D
Although I dont' talk to you guys all that often I want you all to know that I still love you guyyyz. xD And it's very much true. ^^

I think right now, the only people I keep in touch with would have to be... Ben, Peter, Katie, and yeah! That's about it. D:

I think we should get a chatroom at some point. ;D

All grown up O_o?!?!

I don\'t think so.

You\'re all grounded.

No matter how long I leave for when I come back the love is still here <__<

Nope, wrong, you suck, go die.


And @ Elza, my brithday twin: You don't need someone to make you happy. You need you to make you happy. You're right about not needing someone to "save" you or anything - you're your own person. And you've kinda always been someone to look up to around here, since you're older than the majority of our '87- or '88-ers - we believe in you that you'll find your way no matter what kind of existential crisis has gripped you. You're such a strong person, I have no doubts that you'll find a path that brings you joy. Life gets scary sometimes, and we're not sure where we're going or who we are. We question everything around us and doubt things that years ago we would have just taken for granted. Wishing to turn back the clock isn't the way - not only is it not possible, but it's not progressive either and it would be another way of running. You. Will. Figure. Things. Out. You will. And it will be good. I don't know the specifics of what has you in a whorl, but I just started college in September and am probably going to be in a different major this time next year. I have no idea if what I'm doing is the right choice, I don't know what's going to happen when I get out of school (or even how I'm going to come up with the money to finish school) - but I know I can't be afraid. Things are going to happen, and I'm going to cry about some of them, and laugh about others, and I'm going to grow up and try to do the best I can with what I have and what I can do. And it's not a bad thing. Whatever rut or mire you're stuck in you'll get un-stuck. I believe in you.

I'm sorry. I didn't mean to snap at aj. I wasn't angry, really. I was just very much annoyed at that particular comment. And I was disappointed once again to hear that from him. Or to ever hear that from him. I can't say it's easy to "enjoy life" but I'm not being the sour party pooper. It's just a fact of life, I think.

And SW, thank you for the kind words. I think you're very wise regardless of the age. I really wish it was easy to figure it out but in the end, somehow you just end up drifting. I like to stay hopeful (who wouldn't?) but like I said, it's never easy. =/

You need some cookie. ^^

Glad to hear you're disappointed hearing those words from me. This is the mixed emotion I was talking about, most of us(or atleast me) don't know the "realization" thing you're talking about. It could mean anything.

As for me, I just realized I was able to make you snap. XD

And oh, I'm not lost, I never had a road nor a destination to begin with. XD

Smile! The camera's waiting. ^^

I just realised that, 3 years ago there was NO way this topic would have ever happened...XD...

Either way though...I think that everyone has different ways of living life how they want...right now Im on my way...I have a job, I have many good friends (Including everyone here), I am almost finished my qualification, and I still have free time to do what I want...

However there is one or 2 things I'd like to have now that would make things complete...but, sometimes we have to bide our time...hell, Ive been sitting here for quite a few years now feeling pretty negative...but now I feel good when I wake up in the morning, and its a good feeling...

yeah I broke my own rule by cursing here. we're all adults now. don't take it to heart. :lol:

that's another sign of getting older. no more hang-ups? I consider that a hang-up.

good for you Peter. you used to be the most negative person here. I've always been negative myself but never like the way you show it. I'm happy for you. ;) See.. I wish I can grow up and appreciate things the way everyone does.

I think you will. :^)
It just depends what type of person you are really; what's hard for you might be easy for others and vice versa.
And watch! When you "appreciate" things, you probably will do it in the best and most wise way.

Some people "appreciate" things because that's what they're taught they should do. it's just a word for those people.
Then there are the other people that actually learn to appreciate things. Those appreciations are more valuable I would say. :^)

So don't feel too down! I think you're doing just fine! :^D

Unfortunately IM not totally out of the woods yet...Im still amazingly negative on my day...its just that now I have less to be negative about is all...

I suppose they way I fixed some of the problem was look at something I really needed to happen, in my case get work and money, and just make sure that happened...and it did...

I don't think you're as negative as before Peter!
You've really gotten better; or I've just been more tolerable which I don't think is the case.

I would describe you as Keanu Reeves.

edit: I lick pussy and take pictures and send them to the internets

I just realized that we need more topics like this. As seen by the appearance of Vion and Ally...people are still lurking around here. I'll be the first to admit that I lurk around LJ, MySpace, and AT, just keeping tabs on everyone. Not just you AT people, but all of my friends really. Though we've "grown apart", it's harder to get in on convo's since we really don't know what's going on. So I might not to respond to anything and everything, but I'm always watching o____o (stalker!KT ftw)

But the main point was to say that I think most of us are just waiting for something more mature and interesting (like this topic) to pop up to talk about! ^_^ Just goes to show how much we really have grown up. Video game and anime topics just don't cut it anymore xD


Krystle, I think you already know that I can relate to you on so many levels. And you're like..well, to quote Cristina Yang, my "person" sometimes. 'cept I'd say I'm more Mer than Cristina. xD But yeah, you get my point. I think. @_@

If that were true, I would've responded two days ago! But..I haven't been around ._.

aww. KT. you srsly pwn for saying that. and to think I was starting to feel like I've neglected everybody here since my focus has shifted. there's real life and a lot of tv for me. if you're on lj then you'd know that.

I haven't been here. I haven't been on my messengers 'coz I feel half the time I have nothing better to say or talk about. it always leads to some lonely emo shit. frankly, who'd want to talk about that? I wouldn't but I always lead to it. and I've been away from videogames. this place equates videogames. the last game I played (srsly) was Xenosage ep2; the one Ben sent me last last christmas. haha! so yeah. but making a topic that mattered seem like a good idea. and now we're all here once again.

...even for only a moment.

I don't think everyone else understands what you just said KT and I feel sorry for them for not knowing. :P honestly. even from a tv show, that means a lot because I know what it truly means. ;) that said, you too are my person. ;) or at least one of my 'persons' I don't open up a lot but I now know you're one of those I can open up to. =D

I LOL at you all.

edit: You still owe me a date Elza!

edit2: Imagine LOL as like, not the original LOL but a different LOL where it seems meaningful but in a pun type of way.

edit3: I'm visiting AT again!

I agree.

Damn you shaydah, damn you.

Damn Krystle. You caused a revival with this topic! Even BEN is here!

I am thoroughly impressed xD

If krystle is there I'm there <3

Aww. How sweet. xD

Ben is blindly following me around it seems.


um yeah. this is will be short-lived.... as usual. =p

Noo I actually uploading an image to ftp and went to angeltide.net and was just like what the hell and clicked on forum.

Hm. So t'was just on a whim, eh..?

...I speculate a conspiracy going on around here still though ._.

against who w

btw everybody go get a headset and lets talk on yahoo. Typing is starting to get overated.

But yahoo is...ugh. xD

I say everyone should get Skype though :3

whatever lol as long as it has voice chat.

Just get teamspeak. Teamspeak is sexy, and has great sound quality. :P

That or ventrillio, my computer is setup for vent so that would be best. w

wtf. I stick to old school and that's ym.

screw all those other 'programs' you just mentioned. xD

fine Yahoo, just get a damn mic xD

Aww... A rival. roflcopter. Just kidding. XD

Good luck. ;)

Wow, this topic is like the cheese inside a mousetrap. O_O;